Angina Pectoris
My clock reads 9:55 pm.
And I am being attacked.
Of an intruder I didn't know where the roots are.
Gaaaaaaaassssshhhh.
This is just another product of my random thoughts.
When I don't know what to talk about.
When I don't know how to put into words the feelings bursting from the inside.
Life is so full of uncertainties.
And I can't help but sometimes be SCARED.
That after a day or two, things wouldn't be the same anymore.
And things are not the only whatevers in this world that changes, people do, too.
And that is far more scarier. Haha.
Just the thought of waking up with people changing, leaving.
Caused GOOSEBUMPS to erupt throughout my entire Integumentary System.
Gladly, I was reminded.
That no matter how uncertain everything in this world is.
There would be ONE thing that will remain UNCHANGED.
That is my GOD. :)
People will leave me but HE WON'T.
That is certain.
Yet another unseen force attacked me.
INSECURITY.
I suddenly felt so insignificant.
Like I am not needed.
WORTHLESS.
I am not this and that.
I cannot do these things.
I can never be like her.
I will never reach what they have achieved.
I would never be able to get through this.
And more thoughts similar to that just piled up on my head until I can't take it any longer.
It hurts me so much that I would just bite my lips just to keep myself from shouting out in pain.
It's DEBILITATING.
But again I was reminded.
That I am a princess.
Because my Father is the KING OF KINGS.
And nothing would ever shake that fact.
People may not love me for who I am.
They may dislike me for who I am not.
But then, it doesn't really matter.
I can almost hear his whisper in my delicate ears.
"I have intricately designed you not for this people to put down, but for you to stand tall and be proud of being my creation. I have made you perfect not to be belittled, but to prepare you for greatness eternity has laid. I have orchestrated every second of your life, not for these blinded eyes to criticize but to build you up for that perfect time I'll be having you back in the kingdom."
Now, here I am.
CERTAIN, and very much SECURED. :)
And I am being attacked.
Of an intruder I didn't know where the roots are.
Gaaaaaaaassssshhhh.
This is just another product of my random thoughts.
When I don't know what to talk about.
When I don't know how to put into words the feelings bursting from the inside.
Life is so full of uncertainties.
And I can't help but sometimes be SCARED.
That after a day or two, things wouldn't be the same anymore.
And things are not the only whatevers in this world that changes, people do, too.
And that is far more scarier. Haha.
Just the thought of waking up with people changing, leaving.
Caused GOOSEBUMPS to erupt throughout my entire Integumentary System.
Gladly, I was reminded.
That no matter how uncertain everything in this world is.
There would be ONE thing that will remain UNCHANGED.
That is my GOD. :)
People will leave me but HE WON'T.
That is certain.
Yet another unseen force attacked me.
INSECURITY.
I suddenly felt so insignificant.
Like I am not needed.
WORTHLESS.
I am not this and that.
I cannot do these things.
I can never be like her.
I will never reach what they have achieved.
I would never be able to get through this.
And more thoughts similar to that just piled up on my head until I can't take it any longer.
It hurts me so much that I would just bite my lips just to keep myself from shouting out in pain.
It's DEBILITATING.
But again I was reminded.
That I am a princess.
Because my Father is the KING OF KINGS.
And nothing would ever shake that fact.
People may not love me for who I am.
They may dislike me for who I am not.
But then, it doesn't really matter.
I can almost hear his whisper in my delicate ears.
"I have intricately designed you not for this people to put down, but for you to stand tall and be proud of being my creation. I have made you perfect not to be belittled, but to prepare you for greatness eternity has laid. I have orchestrated every second of your life, not for these blinded eyes to criticize but to build you up for that perfect time I'll be having you back in the kingdom."
Now, here I am.
CERTAIN, and very much SECURED. :)
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